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Note from Bob (May 18, 2017): My brother Rich was kind enough to salvage the information on this site after an earlier website appeared to have been hacked and disabled. Thank-you Rich!

Years after I should have done so, I want to provide an explanation for the odd fact that I appear to have set up a blog, and then do not respond to the often complementary and insightful comments that readers leave on it. The explanation requires a brief recitation of my exit from Mormonism, and evolution since then.

My Mormon faith collapsed during a traumatic three week in June and July of 2002. This led to a roughly five year period of intense study of the question: “How could Mormonism, as a belief system and way of life, suddenly appear to me to be obviously false and pernicious after I had completely believed in it throughout my entire adult life, and literally built my life (marriage, family, career, etc.) on it?”

During the course of this study, I found many lenses helpful. In particular, social psychology and the study of the way in which cognitive biases influence individual perception and individual behavior within groups, was helpful. The history of religious movements, layered over my improved understanding of Mormon history, was also helpful. The last, widest and possibly most helpful lens of all, uses the study of complex adaptive systems to help us understand massive shifts in perception, as well as individual and group behavior. As it turns out, the same physical principles are at work in: a brain that suddenly perceives things in a radically different way; the formation of new galaxies; earth quakes; species extinction; and phenomena in the quantum world that are only coming into dim view.

Near the end of that five year period, I developed a repetitive strain injury in my right arms and hand as a result of spending too much time at a computer terminal. This was in part a result of going through a particularly intense time at work, and in part because I was spending most of my free time at the computer, researching, writing, and interacting with members of the post-Mormon community on Internet bulletin boards, and by email.

Then, the web site on which I had been depositing my research notes, and contributions I made to online bulletin boards, was hacked and disabled. It initially appeared that all of the information that had been on it was irrecoverable. I did not have the technical means, or the ability to spend the time at a computer terminal, necessary to put all of my essays and musing back online. Were it not for my brother Rich’s generosity, that would have been the end of my online career. As it was, Rich helped recover most of the information that had been lost.

It took about three years for my repetitive strain injury to heal. Until then, I stayed away from the computer keyboard unless I was at work, and hence more or less disappeared online. By the time I was healthy enough to go back, the burning urge that I had felt to read, write, and interact with others respecting issues related to religion, had subsided. I now attribute that to the fact that the neural networks that drove my new way of thinking and behaving had stabilized, and I no longer needed to constantly run ideas through them; to exercise them and make them stronger.

All of that reading, writing, thinking and interacting had done a very important job for me, and I was ready to, in effect, take off the training wheels and move on into a new life. And I say that without any criticism intended for those who remain long term as participants within the online post-Mormon community, or any other similar community. They provide a tremendous service to others, and I counted it a privilege to have been able for a period of approximately five years to attempt to pay my debt of gratitude to those who helped me, by similarly trying to help others.

Now, I am thoroughly enjoying what many would consider a mundane life. I still work full time, and have therefore limited leisure time. I spend that having a huge amount of fun with my wife, Karen Dawson – much more fun than I thought was legally (or illegally) possible. I enjoy our children and grandchildren. I’m learning to play tennis, and get most of my exercise that way. I still love golfing, and at 59 am in better shape that I was in my forties for sure, and likely my thirties as well. My most recent project is reading down the list of the greatest novels of all time. The Great Gatsby and Anna Karenina were the last two. I just started One Hundred Years of Solitude. For years I’ve enjoyed reading award winners in the Giller and Man Booker prize competitions, and decided that I would go one level up, and start on the best novels of all time. What a fabulous experience that has been so far.

So, I want to express my immense gratitude to all those who have or will come here and find something helpful, and even better, leave their own comments that may be useful to other travelers along this strange, beautiful road. It pleases me that my humble offerings are still useful. I feel like the frog who fell into the milk pail, and while swimming desperately in an attempt to save his own life, accidentally made butter.

I continue to wish all on the way into a new relationship (or no relationship) with Mormonism all the best, and am grateful for the wonderful place I found on that journey. I wish everyone else similar good fortune.

bob

5 thoughts on “About

  1. Hi Bob!

    I wonder where I can find your article that was called something like ‘Why smart mormons don’t make the church true’. I can’t find it on your new blog page, and you seem to have removed the old page. I want to refer to it in a facebook discussion, I very much enjoyed that article, and also much of your other writings!

    Thanx for sharing all your writings and thoughts, it’s been really enligtning to me!

    best regards

  2. It appears that there are problems with the links to much of Bob’s older material when accessed from the “topic” drop-down menus at the top of the site. For most content, hitting the “continued” link after the first couple of paragraphs takes me to “Page not found.” Accessing the same material from the “archives” links on the right works.

  3. When I read some of what Bob has written it is very clear to me that I could not in a 100 years reach his level of thinking.

    I began the process of leaving the church at the age of 17, some 52 years ago without the benefit of everything that has NOT been learned over the last 50 years that supports Mormon beliefs but at that time was still on the verge of discovery or so we thought at the time. Even then there were two levels of Mormons, those who could handle the truth without loosing faith and the rest of us. I am sure this method of keeping people faithful goes back to the very beginnings of the church.

    It took me many more years but I was able to escape the indoctrination of my parents and the church. You have helped me understand a little bit better the forces that keep intelligent members of my family believing.

    How lucky I feel.

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